The word of God is so powerful. Gods living words breathed on me when I was in my prayer closet after finding out that my husband was unfaithful to me. My heart was shattered. This wasn’t the first time my heart had been broken by the one who vowed to hold and cherish me. Similar incidents had happened along the way in our marriage. We had been working to rebuild and to move on from those past hurts, and it seemed every time we worked past the pain and built some trust something new would come up.
In my prayer closet on this particular day, I said “Lord, I can’t do it anymore, I’m ready to die Lord. I literally rather die than go through the pain ever again, and it’s uncertain if he will hurt me again, I’m ready to go home to you, you can take me now. I want to end my life. I’m too tired, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH I’m done God! My heart can’t take it. My kids can’t go through this.”
After I said, “I give up”, it was like a wave of love came over me. I felt so incredibly loved by the Father. And I couldn’t help but say these words, I felt an abandoned courage and said, “tell me what to do God, I want to do what you want me to do, I want to do your will, my life is at your feet, whatever you tell me to do right now I will do, what do I do?”.
He told me “forgive”. He showed me THIS chapter tha I’m about to share with you. I felt Him understand that I wanted to give up. I also felt him in His understanding say you’re not the only person in the world who’s ever felt that way! And the Lord said, “BECAUSE you’re here now, where I wanted you, at my feet, you’ve let the reigns go, I can take over”.
I looked down at my bible and read the following:
2 Corinthians 1:5-10 New Living Translation (NLT)
5 For the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. 6 Even when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your comfort and salvation! For when we ourselves are comforted, we will certainly comfort you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. 7 We are confident that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in the comfort God gives us.
8 We think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters,[a] about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and overwhelmed beyond our ability to endure, and we thought we would never live through it. 9 In fact, we expected to die. But as a result, we stopped relying on ourselves and learned to rely only on God, who raises the dead. 10 And he did rescue us from mortal danger, and he will rescue us again. We have placed our confidence in him, and he will continue to rescue us.
The word of God is what gave me strength when I had none to fight for my marriage. Those words are what snapped my spirit into attention.
And I realized that I was not alone.
Paul too was crushed and overwhelmed beyond his abilities, he too though he would die, he expected to. And because he let go and gave up trying to do it on his own and within his own abilities, God was able to rescue him and show His strength.
Paul explains in verses 5-7 that the suffering they went through was not only for themselves, it was to give comfort to others who they would later tell about God’s amazing power. It was to encourage and give others confidence that God will protect and comfort in suffering.
So, I share my suffering with you all because I KNOW that if God rescued me, if God comforted and spoke to me, then He will do the same and more for you.
No matter how crushed and overwhelmed you feel, the only giving up you need to do is giving up on doing it in your own strength.
At the end of your ability God will take over and He will shock you with His perfect power and love.